You hold me now

Hillsong United
You Hold Me Now
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qx2-Inc8TkA

VERSE 1:
On that day when I see
All that You have for me
When I see You face to face
There surrounded by Your grace
All my fears swept away
In the light of Your embrace
Where Your love is all I need
And forever I am free

PRE CHORUS 1:
Where the streets are made of gold
In Your presence healed and whole
Let the songs of heaven
Rise to You alone

CHORUS:
No weeping no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now
You hold me now

VERSE 2:
In this life I will stand
Through my joy and my pain
Knowing there's a greater day
There's a hope that never fails
Where Your Name is lifted high
And forever praises rise
For the glory of Your Name
I'm believing for the day

PRE CHORUS 2:
Where the wars and violence cease
All creation lives in peace
Let the songs of heaven
Rise to You alone

BRIDGE:
For eternity
All my heart will give
All the glory to Your Name

A message from Job

what do you think is the relationship between blessing from God and the obediance to him?
Why do we seem to think that if we live a good life and add a ceckmark in front of a religious list that we deserve to keep that good life? Job was a geat man, greatest among those in the East. His wealth, his family. Gone. Crazy, how would I react? Would I curse God and die?
Satan assumes that humans will not follow God without some payoff. He even kind of taunts God seemingly saying "they don't love you that much" or "they only love you when things are going right"
Interesting that God is silent for 37 chapters and the in chp 38:4 - God asks Job a series of questions. At first glance this looks demeaning. Deep down, I think God does some encouarging and educating during this long series of questions. One statement is out of place. Why does God send water where no one lives? What's the point? Why would you put the most valuable resource at this time where no one lives and like it? Why would you use this language to a man hurting, a man in the circumstances of Job?
HE GIVES FOR NO REASON AT ALL BECAUSE THAT IS WHO GOD IS. He is that kind of God who delights in giving for no reason at all.
In the end, does Job learn anything?
Job 42:15 - notice Job gives an inheritance to his daughters; this just didn't happen in these times. Why would he do this?
Job, through his relationship with God, has learned to delight in giving for no reason.

Getting closer

this is a picture of all of us in our matching "day for hearts" tshirts (this wonderful little carnival they have for all the little heart kids and their families at children's. colt had a blast, and loved that we all got matching tshirts.

Sorry for being absolutely terrible about updating the blog but with two kids it leaves little time for blog updating. Claire has been growing like crazy. She is 12.5lbs now which puts her in the 50th percentile....quite a bit of growing in her little 3 months considering she was only 6lbs 2 months ago and in the 5th percentile. We had our monthly checkup with Dr Wheller, our cardiologist, and said Claire is doing wonderful. Her oxygen saturation is right where they want it to be (low 80's) and she is chunky (one of the best indicators that a baby is doing well). So, we are headed for the next step in the middle of august. We will go back to the cardiologist for an echocardiogram (ultrasound of the heart) and have an appointment wiht Dr Wheller. After that appointment he will present Claire's case and we will get a surgery date after that point. WOW, hard to believe that we will be headed back to children's for another surgery in just a couple of months. I have had so many emotions streaming through me. There is lots of differences this time around. We know what we are getting into....(we know the good places to eat around the hospital, we are fimilar with the cicu and stepdown) in that perspective it should be a lot easier. Unfortunately this time around Claire will be around 6 months. For all my mommies and daddies out there you know how awful it would be to have a baby that wants to held and you cant hold them. This time around Claire KNOWS us, and that is a major difference. Once again, we are calling on our prayer warriors! I am still humbled and awed by God protecting and healing our baby girl the first time.....and interested to see what we will learn this time around.

A link to some Pictures

Here is a link to the facebook album of Claire.

I am still trying to find the time to add a little words to the story of bringing her home. Who would have thought that time would be tough to come by with a new born at home?

Goin' Home

Happy to report that after 2 weeks and 6 days, the entire Frame family is back to our house in Delaware.

I hope to post more of a description tomorrow with some pictures.

We love you all and thank you for your thoughts and prayers.

Heading to the Step Down (which is actually a Step Up)

4-15-10 Tax Day
Mandi and I got to the hospital and headed for the CICU to see our baby girl. We walked the halls with anticipation because of the experiences from the previous night. We had prayed all along that little Claire would be a fighter… she was throwing some punches which probably did not help with her pain levels. We got to our room and she was resting pleasantly. Shortly after we arrived the nurse practitioner team took the chest to out. This was a huge relief of the pain for Claire Bear. We started to take her off of the pain medication. It was nice to start to see some of the tubes going away. We laughed because at one point, every extremity and 5 of 7 orifices had some sort of sensor or tube.
We had a great afternoon and slowly watched more sensors and tubes come away. Mandi got to feed her and I just hung out. I was super tired from two weeks of excitement and talked with Mandi about heading home a little earlier (8:00pm) to hang out with Colton and get to bed early. Little Miss Claire Bear must have heard me because she decided at that time to have a little set back. Her oxygen saturations fell below acceptable levels and gave us a little scare. The team of doctors decided to give her some red blood cells to increase her oxygen carrying capacity at about 11pm. Luckily, this did the trick. Eventually, her levels got to the point where we felt comfortable heading back to Delaware. As we left we were unsure how this little set back would keep us commuting to and from Columbus.

4-16-10
Colton woke me up bright and early. We watched a little TV and I made all of us breakfast. We dropped off Colt to Mimi and headed to the hospital. Just as we were getting off the exit, Mandi’s phone rang. We still get that sick feeling in our stomach when we see the number (614-722-2000). What the heck this time? It did not take long to hear from the tone of Mandi’s voice that it was positive news. Claire was being moved from the Cardiac ICU to a step down unit which is actually a significant step up in amenities. We now have our own bathroom and Claire is mobile! All of her monitors communicate through a wireless network which allows us to move about the floor. The floor has two playrooms which I am excited to show Colton and is more kid brother friendly than we have experienced at Childrens. We are so happy to have Claire doing well and in a place where we can actually have a family relax TOGETHER. We can shut the door and there is not a whole lot of things that a curious three year old can screw up.

We are excited for Colton to get here tonight and actually get to hold his little sister.

We appreciate your thoughts and prayers.

Give Me Some Meds…

I woke up this morning as you would expect any father in our position. Not really a gradual wake up by any means. As soon as consciousness arrived, my mind quickly started running through the events of the day. I lay in bed for a little while and waved into and out of prayers for my baby girl. Eventually, I decided it was time to get a move on and jump in the shower. Shortly after I started the super hot water, I heard Mandi’s shower turn on. I was a little surprised to hear her up so early. I finished getting ready and then had a chance to talk with Mandi. She told me that the NICU had called and wanted to move the surgery up from 1:00pm to 10:00am. Well, this started to put a little sense of urgency for the Frame family. Then, Mandi got another call and they said the plan was to move the surgery up to 9:00am. Now we were in super urgency mode. The little Claire Bear continues to add surprises for her parents. We got ready and headed to the hospital. A different nurse did call again and let us know that they would not take her to the OR until we got to see her. I was a little afraid of the traffic as we were headed to Columbus during the heart of rush hour. Luckily, traffic was not too bad and we made it to the hospital to spend some quality time with the little one. I would clearly define this time as very joyful, yet a nervous tension in the air. Knowing that your little girl will have a knife touch her skin in a very short amount of time is pretty horrible. Mandi and I soaked every minute of this time before she left us and headed into the operating room. Everyone was so nice and provided a comforting atmosphere. Now the waiting…

We made camp in the family waiting area and where we were met with a crew of individuals to keep our minds from wondering too far (Al and Cody from DCC, Karen, Kandy, Heather and big brother Colton). Our conversations did vary and every so often we would get an update from the nurse on the procedure. All of us played with Colton and he did bring the crowd to laughter a few times. In fact, two other people sitting close to us chose to sit elsewhere because we must have been too much for them.

I was the first to see Dr. Galantowicz approaching. I tried my best to read the body language upon his arrival to get any indication as to the prognosis. I kind of pride myself at being able to read this nonverbal tool. Unfortunately, this was not the case today. My gut feeling was that he was going to give us great news, but how well do I know him. Could he be masking any negative comments that might be shared? Luckily, my gut feeling was correct and he shared that Claire was doing well. He said the procedure went as planned and she was already extubated and off the ventilator. I was impressed. We were happy to quickly share this news via facebook, texts, and phone messages.

We went to lunch with Karen, Kandy, Heather, and Colton then headed to the playground to hang out with Colton on this wonderful sunny day. It was a good relief.

After the designated time, we decided to head up and check on Claire. She had been moved to the Cardiac ICU. I am not really sure how to explain this next section. Lets just say that my perspective of doing good and the doctor’s were a little different. She did look quite pale to me and I did not like the chest tube at all. But all the doctors and nurses who deal with little cardiac babies said she was doing pretty well.

According to the title, you should be able to tell that we have had difficulty keeping little Miss Claire pain free. Man does she have her mom’s temper (don’t tell Mandi I said that). We learned from the last CT scan and sedation that she is extremely sensitive to fentnyl pain meds. If she has too much, she will have apneic periods; if she does not have enough she screams. Not fun either way. This is a case where we need the happy medium.

We are hoping for a relaxing evening.

We appreciate your thoughts and prayers.